55 hours now without sleep.. really walking like zombie.. when i with her, i can simply don't smoke at all.. but now.. it seems like i'm smoking every moment.. almost a pack a day.. Jac mention that i got insomnia.. i got no idea.. my eyes are tired.. but i just can't fall asleep..
Had chicky rice at simei.. it tasted so weird.. perhaps she is not with me.. anyway, i went to collect my report.. and it show negative.. it is a good thing but they are going to keep me under observation..
Tired eyes are bleedy red with slits left open with the constant lack of sleep. Its not by choice thus contributing to becoming more exhausted. I think i'm losing my sanity.. The mirror reflects thin red veins around the pupil and cheeks sunken in so much it looks gaunt.
The clouds are dark and heavy, pregnant with rain threatening to pour out any second. Rather apt for the inner anguish in silent tears.. Some stupid french song plays in the background and then with a roar of the thunder, water pour from the sky..
Two tiny ants were making their way about my sheets aimlessly. Or so i thought because i have yet to discover their place of residence.. see how bored I am? I can hardly believe i been noticing ants.. The news reported that Indonesia had another earthquake last night. 5.7 on the Richter scale. Mild compared to what took place over a week ago. Lighting flashes across the sky just outside my window lighting up the dim room.