111007 evening
Is really the end.. she have long let go.. and i decided to let her go to make her more happier.. hope she really does.. glad she call my dad to wish him happy birthday.. thank you for doing that.. i not going to let my parents know about it.. i smile in front of them.. i realise i have totally changed.. to a more humble person.. to a less ego person.. to be less possesive.. but no point.. she already gone.. everything is too late.. i feel i have let go a big bag of gems.. it is so heavy.. but so beautiful..
Went for dinner with my parents.. really envy them.. if only my relationship able to be like them.. but it just ended.. i treat them to Fish & Co.. i realise i nolonger shouting at them anymore.. but rather, i talk to them nicely.. my life change.. more lonely now.. i really do miss her alot.. i miss her touch.. miss looking at her beautiful eyes and smiles so badly.. if only i didn't do that stupid things.. things will be different now..
Now.. 37 hours without sleep.. my dinner is my first meal of the day and i couldn't even finish half of the foods.. i going drinking again..
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