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well, is all my fault in result all this.. i shouldn't have use her msn.. she asleep.. and her msn is offline.. therefore, i am curious and jealous as both of them did chat before she logged off.. so i switch it to busy mode.. and he start to message her.. i didn't know what to reply, so i act as her.. i shouldn't have done it.. in result she hate me to the core.. and our relationship ended simply just like that.. i tried chasing her to the cab.. but she yell so loud that i didn't want to make scene.. therefore, i run to my car and chase after her.. but i lose her.. driving up and down to search for her.. when i saw her, she simply just ignore me.. it is so hurting..
I had commit a crime by using her msn and acting as her.. i had made a mistake by invading her privacy.. is all my fault.. why am i so foolish to let jealous run over me.. ignore is the best solution yet i unable to do it.. guess she will never reply me nor answer my call.. using her msn is a childish way of doing but this is what most of the guys will do...
Went out drinking to ease the hurt.. but nobody will know.. didn't slept at all.. dare not sleep in fact.. for everytime i woke up in nightmare with her not beside me.. i have been awake since yesterday 8am till now.. is already 32 hours.. all the conversation we had.. the future we forseen.. the trips we plan.. is all gone.. i really don't want anything you return to me or whatever.. the only thing i want you to return is your love.. i won't do anything more.. the least i can do now is to make you happier.. if leaving you will make you more happy then we used to be together.. i don't wish but have to do it.. yet i will be waiting for you return again.. a relationship take two hands to clap.. no matter how my hand wait over here.. you don't wish to clap my.. there nothing much i can do.. i know if i force my way to you.. you won't like it..
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