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Today, i went out with philbert and david again.. to drink.. suppose to let philbert drink as he was feeling down.. yet ended up is me the one who is feeling down.. i even break down in the pub.. it was such a shame.. a man crying so badly in the public.. i simply can't help it.. i just unable to let her go.. for my love to her is still very strong.. i told her i intend to quit my current job despite knowing i got a chance to get my second contract.. all she does is wish i make a wise choice and wish me all the best.. i am doing it for her.. everything i do.. i do it for her.. yet she just keep telling me that i'm not the one for her.. things never try.. you will never know.. if you really try enough.. he won't stand a chance to come in.. but everything is too late.. he stand every chances now.. yet i was being cast aside..
I drink.. i drank.. i drunk.. but after awhile.. i fresh awake again.. for i still unable to get her out of my mind.. every seconds i am thinking about her.. i simply got no mood for anything else.. how i wish i can simply just walk out of my current job.. i calculated.. if i want to earn 80k as my saving.. it will took me another 20 years to reach if i stay at my current job.. if i take a risk and move on.. i might get it at a shorter time.. is either i fall to the bottom.. or i climb to the highest.. so since that is my goal now.. i should take up the risk.. i had enough of my current job.. sick and tired of it..
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