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My birthday.. our anniversary.. and i receive the best present from her.. that is she left me.. i don't blame her at all.. she is still young.. she still doesn't know what she really want.. when i found out she has feeling for another guy.. i know her heart is no longer there.. the very last time i look at her in her eyes.. our very last kiss.. our last long warm hug.. i know i unable to hold her back.. deep down is really hurting.. she is someone who i love most.. someone who i truly fall deep in.. someone who allow happiness in me.. right now.. everything is gone.. i set her free.. i let her go.. no point holding her when her love is not there anymore.. all i want is just to let her be happy.. if she is happier without me taking care of all.. i have to let go.. loving someone is not holding on.. but is to make another person happy.. what you can't hold is not yours..

I really want to thanks her for these 2 years of relationship.. she allow me to realise alot.. learn alot.. and she bring happiness and smiles to me.. though she may left.. i will never ever forget every moment that we spend.. this is the happiest time in my whole life.. i don't want to let it go.. i want to hold it on even she not there.. my love for her will never change and nobody will ever replace her in my heart.. i will still remain where i stand to be there for her always.. as i promise.. my love for her will never change.. even if she found someone else.. i will still be here.. always..

in fact is a good thing i had let her go.. as i will be changing my job in a year time.. and i can no longer ensure her stability with my income.. i rather she choose to left me hurt than suffer with me.. is really not easy to let her go.. for she means everything in my life.. but i have no choice.. i just wish she will be happier..