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Went to her house to pick her up yesterday.. and she was still lying in the bed.. she opened the door for me.. and back to the bed she went.. since time is still early.. i asked if i can sleep for awhile.. she agree and let me climb on to the bed with her.. when we reached there, I still haven't had my dinner.. so she got me a hotdog bun for dinner and popcorn for both of us.. it is a funny show yet a heart warming one.. is because we are hugging each other while watching it.. But in the end, happy time doesn't last.. i know she wasn't ready to commit again.. therefore, when i thought we are back together.. i show her the ring again.. but she comment we are just very close friends.. we have a good heart talk.. and we hugged each other tight.. before bid goodbye..

Morning she wasn't feeling well, i'm rush to her side.. and we slept through the morning together with her in my arms.. after which, i send her to central as she need to take MC.. and this point of time, he called asking to meet her to pass her stuff.. a CD.. after she done, we are back in the cozy bed again.. the feeling is great to have a love one sleeping beside you with her arms wrap around you.. i never sleep well after she left.. the most is only three/four hours a day.. in result, my smoking get heavier.. but after having her in my arms again.. it has been a nice long sleep.. and my smoking did went down for her.. we have dinner together, macdonal.. our favourite 20 pieces nuggets.. and her favourite drink, sprite. While i'm driving her to her workplace, she feed me like what she used to do in the past.. the feeling unable to use any words to describe it.. but he is there to spoil everything.. he keep messaging her.. in the end, she choose to ignore him as we are having our meals.. in the car.. after we are done, i kissed her goodbye..

I know she wasn't ready.. i understand why she want to be alone and doesn't wish to commit at this point of time.. therefore, i have stop asking her to return for time being.. i wanted her to be happy.. loving someone is not having/possession someone.. but is making the person happy..