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Everytime i ask her to meet.. her reply will always be "see how". It will never be confirmed.. and most of the times is always ended up the next day.. Today, i miss her badly and thinking that she is all alone at home, therefore i ring her a bell to keep her accompany.. yet found out that she was out with her friend.. who she never mention to me before.. worse is when i keep asking her to watch movies the past few times.. things held up.. time doesn't allow.. or whatsoever reason.. but today she is watching movies with him. She simply agree to her friends when just a call or message came.. Why she can make up her mind so easily when it come to friends and taking a long time to consider when it come to me?
I feel hurt.. who am i to her now? why am i not in her first place? And she doesn't seems to wear my ring at all.. it make me feel sad.. I always put others before me.. that is why i willing to do or let go anything for her. People say, "To love others, you have to love yourself first." But to me, "In order to love yourself, love others first." Is simply like looking at a cup which the water level is at the half.. is half filled? or half empty? to me.. 60% i will say is half empty and another 40% is both.. is only depend how you look at it.
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