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A special day today indeed.. yet i have to work from 6am till now.. didn't have much rest at all.. my mind is elsewhere.. hoping to hear from someone.. yet my phone have been quiet so far.. no idea but my heart is aching.. how I do wish to have someone to hold in my arms this very moment.. this very day.. but I am just alone.. lonely me.. Somehow, I do wish I can have a long break.. a break from everything.. to all my past.. my present.. i wish i can erase everything that once happened..

A friend of me message me yesterday and mention.. saying that she can sense I wasn't really happy.. and I was just putting a fake smile on my face.. I replied her by asking what make her feel so.. and she just say is by feeling.. and said that I'm still carrying this heavy bag on my back till now.. and i should have let go and look for a new relationship since she is attached.. she also did asked if I do feel scare yet yearn for a hope of love.. but I just told her I have no intention in looking for any relationship..